happy 2nd post except it's not happy

it is the 5th of february and i am feeling a little bitter. me and the friend (my BEST friend) that always talked shit about people that started ignoring their friends after getting a boyfriend... haven't spoken much since she got a boyfriend. we always said that we'd be girls girls that never let a man (whether he's a good one or a shit one) get in the way of our friendship... i'm not saying he's done anything, but all i know is that she talks to him on the daily while my messages have been getting ignored for the last few months. she's not really the most timely person when it comes to responding to messages, but knowing that she's talking to her man everyday makes it rough. i don't know if i'm being too clingy or something. i know everyone always says that a romantic relationship will come before a friendship, no matter how long and strong the friendship was before the partner entered the picture, but i just don't get it. why should i have to accept being pushed aside for someone she's known for less than a year while we've been friends for almost a decade?

i guess another reason i feel this way (which i've been planning on making a blog post about) is because i feel like romance is just not on the cards for me. ever. not in the aromantic sense but in the sense that no one will ever want me and i don't know why. maybe that's why i'm of the belief that romantic relationships shouldn't signal the end or the deprioritisation of platonic relationships - because i'm not sure i'll ever have that, so i need to rely on my friends for company forever.